Twenty years ago I promised myself I would never come to India without a male and would never in a million years get on one of their public buses. Yet today I find myself squashed into an overcrowded filthy run down public Indian bus watching the man in front of me pick out his ear wax and neatly spreading it over the back of the seat in front of him. Read More
Chopping vegetables for two hours a day has become a beautiful meditation. As I focus intently and silently on being fully present I see and feel the ocean of peace all around me. As I was chopping the humble potato I began seeing the life-force energy within it, fine streams of energy was pouring from it. I knew its whole existence was there simply to nourish us, don’t get me started on the coriander! The gratitude I felt for these humble vegetables and herbs was immense. Read More
How do we know if it’s really true love? True love, or unconditional love sees all things equally i.e. as much love for one person as another because unconditional love is the same within each as it’s the fabric of who we are.
Ego is a concept, it’s the act of our attachment to the beliefs we have chosen to take on. We can believe many things about others and ourselves. We want to believe great things about our relationships including how much real love this relationship has. Yet real unconditional love has no beliefs. Only beliefs can lead to fear. When emotions arise it’s always because there is an attachment to a belief, this is different to real love. Only fear holds on, love lets go. Read More
Mooji once said, when you go to an ashram don’t make friends. I felt the truth in his words, therefore I have stood back from others whilst in the Ashram, deliberately not getting close with anyone and rarely joining in on any conversation.
It’s too easy to let ego take over, to allow the stories of the past be told and fears and beliefs strengthened. Yet we come to an ashram to detach from ego, not strengthen it with our opinions and views on different cultures, beliefs and the attitudes of others and how right or wrong we perceive them to be. Read More
It appears that even in an ashram the gossiping continues. When others around are involved in gossiping or attached to all the awful world events that are happening and speak about all their woes and complaints and judgment of others, it’s a good time to put on some headphones and let inspiring music be all that you focus your attention on.
With practice the music will be singing you whether head phones are on or not. Gossiping only feeds the energy of judgment and upset, stop feeding this energy into you and focus on high frequency inspiring energy instead.
The ashram is really another school yard, I liked to think I came with no expectations, yet I didn’t expect this, so clearly there was some expectation of what living in an Ashram would be like.
The gossip, sarcasm, and clicky groups are in full swing. The lighter the light, the darker the shadows. It’s a battlefield for the ego.
Many people, I had assumed (certainly not all) have come to the ashram to let go of ego. I realise now that not many at all appear to have this goal, many were here out of curiosity and not necessarily for the purpose of awakening more to within. Read More
After letting go and detaching from all my worldly possessions and the struggles of this physical body, all I can say is the more we awaken to who we really are, the better it gets, regardless of what the physical world is reflecting to us.
I’ve never felt such intense calmness and peace even whilst in a rickshaw in chaotic mad traffic of India, I feel the peace of my ocean.
Amma – The hugging saintIn April, 2017 on her Australian tour I met an extraordinary Indian woman, Sri Mata Amritanandamayi – affectionately known as “Amma” (Mother) – the hugging Saint. The moment she came into the room, I knew she would change my world.
My heart busted open, the heat in my chest was intense, I hadn’t experienced that before, yet I hadn’t been in the presence of what they call an enlightened master before. I had no idea then who she was and even now, I don’t think anyone can truly know who Amma really is. Read More
This journal is simply an expression of what has arisen within me throughout my journey of awakening both in Australia and during my year in India.
There are many things I have read and heard about in India the is totally in alignment with all I have been intuitively teaching. In many ways this has been reinforcing what has come to my through meditation and in all those times I have surrendered and let my heart guide me. Read More
